I believe that “mother” is more of an emotion than a relation!
My journey to motherhood started 7 years back, when I first heard that I have a life growing in me. A feeling that cannot be explained in words!
Since then, it has been a continuous effort to be the best mother to my little one – and trust me, its quite stressful.
Sometimes I wonder, are all mothers the same like me? Do they feel the stress to be a perfect mother? Do they equally worry about their performance as a mother like I do all the time? Or it is just me – who is not able to do all that I should be doing as per my checklist? These thoughts increases the guilt within me.
It seems worries and guilts are a packaged deal with motherhood.
I am so thankful to the almighty, that he has blessed with a son who just as perfect as in the moral stories. And while I feel extremely lucky to be his mother, it has added a lot of guilts to my list.
- I feel sorry if I have to delay his meal time because of that business call that overran
- I feel guilty when I feel bored to clean up his room that is full of toys all around
- I feel bad when I cook a short-cut meal, because I am too tired, knowing well he needs a complete and nutritious meal
- I don’t feel good when he has something or the other to speak continuously but I cannot give him complete attention, as I have to cook and take care of home chores
- It is absolutely heart-wrenching when I punish him for a wrong-doing, even though I know it’s right
It is a constant thought in me that asks whether my baby will be as proud of me as I am of my mom? And in some situations, when the answer from deep within is a NO, it breaks me to the core.
It’s such a competitive world outside, and hence as mothers, we tend to implement all that is right for the little ones. We want to prepare them for the future. We want them to win. We want them to shine. And in this race, we sometimes forget that their childhood is precious.
It’s the time to live the moments with them, laugh at the funny questions they ask, wonder about the things they imagine. This is the time for love, care, laughs and hugs.
Both seem to two different worlds and that’s the fight in every mother’s heart.
Are we missing on all this? If yes, what is the “right protocol” for a mother to be the best combination of these two worlds?
They say that mother is a form of god. Yes, we are. We are bringing new life to the world. But we are a form of god, with a little imperfection, and hence this struggle.
This mother’s day, let’s pledge to be more accepting for who we are, more forgiving to our guilts, more loving to our little ones and more caring to our own moms!
Happy Mother’s Day to all the mothers in this world! 🙂
A Silent Self Wave.. 