Its past 12 and I am still wide awake. That’s why beyond my usual sleeping time. I am looking at the radium stars pasted on my ceiling. Engrossed in my own thoughts.
Usually this happens to me when I am stressed. Sometimes over a project, or an angry client, or something that is not going right in my business, or may be a fight at home – especially when I am right. And let me admit. I am always right. 😛
This sleepless mode comes as a result of my worries, frustration or anger.
But what is happening to me now is rare, different. And I have not experienced this for a really long time. My heart beating so fast, that I feel any moment it will come out in my hands, it wanting me to get up and dance. My eyes twinkling, my lips smiling. An adrenaline rush inside! 😀
Isn’t our body strange. It behaves similar when we are extremely sad or extremely happy. Same faster heart beats, tears, an overactive mind and an unusual movement inside. Anyways, let me keep this comparison aside and bring back my thoughts here. This mind I tell you, keeps randoming running in all directions. Uff. 😐
And so in the background, there is this song playing:
Karke dikha kamaal wo, aake zameen pe deke jaye aasma.. Shabashiyaaann..
Which translates as – do something so wonderful, that the sky itself comes to earth to congratulate you!
I have heard this many times before, mostly to seek motivation. But today, it feels like this has been composed just for me. Let me dedicate it to me now! 😎
This is just that very moment for me as in the song. I feel on the top of the world! I feel I am touching the sky!
Life is full of surprises, and some real big ones too. 🙂
You know it happens. There are times in life when things aren’t working out well, when we feel we just can’t take it anymore. We blame ourselves; we blame others, we don’t even leave the god. We keep asking – why me? What wrong did I do?
But when we are just about to quit, something happens and it gives us strength to give it another try. Just a bit. Every time. And this “just a bit” keeps us going, and gives a ray of hope.
Who does that? Have you thought about it?
May be the stars up there, watching us try. Or may the whole universe, the creator itself, wanting us to hold on. Or may its not outside. Its that voice inside – that’s always positive. I don’t know. But don’t you feel, there is definitely something that holds us?
I always kept telling myself that for something amazing to happen, struggle is a must. Somehow, today I feel the bigger is the struggle, the bigger is the reward! Oh, is it my happiness talking 😛
When in hard times, we cry, we suffer, we feel that the whole world is against us. But you know what, it is ok. It is fine to feel sorry and guilty and hopeless and surround yourself with all kinds of negative thoughts. It is just normal and we are humans. Definitely the positive quotes and phrases and movies don’t help during this time, ask me. They may make just create a momentary impact – may.
Today.. I am thankful.. I am happy.. I am proud.. I am super excited.. Because after all the hardships in business, we have received a major deal that will transform our company completely.. and change our lives forever – ofcourse which will make our personal lives equally enriched! It’s a dream come true today. A picture perfect ending – just like the movie “The Pursuit of Happiness.”
I am writing this to tell you my dear readers, trust me, there is some power out, thats the only friend we can depend on.. It’s a silent companion in our life.. a life may get in a mess, but will always remain blessed! Lets keep faith. 😊
And as I write this sentence, tiny tears roll out on my cheek.. these are my happy tears 😊
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