It’s your story.. dear woman!

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womanbAlarm rings.. 5am.. With drowsy eyes and a strong undesire to get up, I try locating my mobile – just to swipe the snooze button and get that “10 mins more” sweet sleep..

10 mins gone…. alarm rings again.. Why can’t gadgets too feel lazy sometimes? 😐

Finally I make my mind to get up.. Do I have an option?

Slow pace and rubbing eyes, I am out of the bed.. Yet another long day ahead..

And then it strikes me – ohh its special day today.. it’s Women’s Day.. it’s a day to celebrate the pride of being a woman.. to cherish the achievements.. to feel like a queen!! 🙂 🙂

As I start my home chores, I think.. how is women’s day gonna be different at home? I still have to go for walk, make my own coffee, cook, get my handsome little one ready, drop him to school.. aemm.. countless big and small to dos.. So am I really proud of being a women with an endless dance on the toes?

Yes, I am proud – A strong voice shouts from within. Look at the way I multi-task the whole day. I manage my home, my work, my son’s home-work ;), my husband’s taste buds, my parents, my friends, my maid (most importantly), my hobbies, my aspirations!

My world – just a perfect one! 🙂

And then I become a role-model.

TO my son, unknowingly I am teaching him that woman deserve equality, they are not meant “for-home chores only”. I am teaching him to be independent, I am letting him grow more like an individual – obvious reason – I am not around him all the time. I am working!!

TO my husband, I am assuring him that I am there – to share responsibilities – he is not a one man army! I am there to contribute in every little thing we do for our home, an ear for his office troubles – as I have them too! a strong back-up, when he wants to fly for his professional aspirations – he doesn’t need to be holding his discomforts for the sake of home responsibilities.

Wow – what a proud feeling – a working woman, yes I AM!! B-)

9am, I drive Avneesh to school, and keeping my cool, drive through the traffic jams and honking to reach office. I do a bit of make-up before settling on my seat 😛

and then there are e-mails flooded with wishes – happy womens day – from bankers to marketers to shopping sites – all are in full swing to please women!!

HR team makes sure we feel on top of the world today! Flowers, special gifts, games, motivations speeches – I love every moment of this enjoyment! Yes – I tell myself – such a blessing being a working women – happy, independent – full of self-esteem! 🙂

As the day passes and the clock strikes 1, all head for the “special lunch for beautiful ladies”. My heart runs home to see if Avneesh had food? Did he like it or left it halfway? Did he take his morning fruit?

I assure myself that all is going to be well and I don’t need to stress. Wasn’t I convinced with the thought of making him independent??

Day passes by. My mind keeps wandering around home. Did Avneesh do any new thing today that I missed to see? Did he speak a new word?? He must be missing mumma for a garden play, poor chap! 😦

Evening arrives as I start wrapping-up my work. What a pleasant weather it is – perfect for family time with coffee and chitchats! I smile with this thought.. I am sure my husband too would have been missing this! A day-dreamer in me visuals us together!

And then comes an e-mail – urgent action needed. Errr.. Does that mean I am going to be late? Is it yet another miss to a great family evening?? Hmm..

I know my people will understand.. They won’t complaint at all.. They know it’s a need to support family.. Still.. what is this feeling of incompleteness? Would it have been better to let go career, stay at home and enjoy every moment with family?? 😦

SO I finish the urgent tasks and get back home.. It’s too late for a refreshing coffee in the “tiny-fortune paid” home with amazing view from balcony.

Let’s cook-eat-sleep. Simple plan now. 😐

And the day gets over.

This is not just my story – but story of all the women in this world – working or not working doesn’t matter. It’s the story of tremendous patience and balance in a woman’s mind.

It’s about the power a woman has to handle these extremely opposite emotions of pride and guilt every single day!

I am proud of this power, I am proud of this balanced mind. I am proud of being a woman – god’s complete package deal!

Happy women’s day!

 

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♥ Are you also like me?

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You are like a continuous movement within me
You are like a collection of the poems that I haven’t yet written
O my love, please say it once.

Is it like this even for you?

I brought some soft-spoken words in my pocket, I saw a fresh lightning in your eyes,
I came a little while along with you – forgetting myself completely
Holding your finger, shall I write few words on plain water?
At least when your shadow is around, shall I adorn it with flowers
To trust and wait, I am a simple fool..

Are you also like me?

Over a bed of flowers in your dream, you are a passionate attraction in my mind
You are a magical crop in my heart, that flourishes with the chill wind
From your sweet torment, please come and save me once
When both of us dream of a single thing, are you and I two different entities?
I’m like a feather that came lying low at your doorstep

Are you also like me?

 

The Rise of Phoenix

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Since my school days I had always wondered if the Greek mythological bird Phoenix ever had any truth in it. How can a bird take rebirth from its own ashes?

As I grew older, I understood the deeper meaning of this concept. Phoenix symbolizes renewal, transformation from your old self to a new one, a change for good, a new life with new aspirations and fresh mind. Its an inspiration to metamorphose your self.

Last 2 weeks were a bit crazy for me. A 9-day long break from office and “no agenda” at home made my mind almost a vacuum. First 2 days were so relaxed, just sleeping eating, watching TV, and doing NOTHING at all that’s productive. A complete rejuvenation! 😛

Then came a time when my mind started peeping inside in search of something I always wanted to do, wanted to become,  and wasn’t really taking an effort for it.

It’s said that empty mind is devil’s workshop however for me it turned out to be a “google search within” 🙂

I started making list of things I would want to do in my life – small and big – from being punctual at office to start meditating to controlling my food habits (which is the biggest and most challenging one is the list I think) 😛 I figured that personally and professionally I need to make myself better in certain aspects whether its decision making, keeping patience at times or just letting go things that create a turbulence.

I also realized that I am very good at beginning new things but most of times loose my grip in continuing them after a while. Hence most of the things I had started were unfinished, left incomplete. Sigh!

I didn’t want this to repeat and hence for the next 2-3 days I only looked at the list to make sure my mind is all prepared to start and continue with what all I want.

This week, I tested myself on it and to my surprise, I was able to achieve my desires seamlessly. I didn’t miss any of the things put on paper. I am calmer than before, feeling light, laughing aloud, streamlining thoughts, making way out from my own confusions, taking decisions rationally.

Overall, feels like a rebirth from the older version to be a better, happier and a satisfied me. A colourful life ahead of me!

Isn’t it  rise of phoenix within? 🙂

The place I call “HOME”..

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Beaches, mountains, wonders of the world I may roam
Nothing better I found than the place I call home..

My home is not a palace, nor its a castle
It’s a simple place away from all hassles..

It’s a place my mind seeks the much needed peace
Just a small one, with everything of my ease..

It sees me in all my laugh and cry
It witnesses my happiness and my sigh..

Stands by me to welcome friends and family
Has so much warmth that strangers too feel homely..

Gives me space to explore myself
Reminds of hobbies that are kept in the shelf..

Holds me tight with the flowers yellow pink and white
Sprinkles the beauty of moon stars and the black night..

Gives me the food I need to survive
Here I dance and sing, here I revive..

The walls showcase pictures of the happy times
Birds on the windows sing melodious rhymes..

Doors tell me I can shut things that deeply hurt
I am well protected, the roof always asserts..

It’s my temple, where I silently sit and pray
It’s my heart, where all my emotions stay..

It’s my womb, where my soul reside
It’s my sky to fly, my wings spread wide..

It’s a comfort, where I can always rest
It’s the place that tells me I am the BEST!

Home sweet home, reflection of my own
Nothing better I found than the place I call home 🙂

Should I call it “photography-mania”??

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This year has been a wonderful journey so far – from bitter-sweet experiences, adventures, jaunts -to getting completely insane sometimes. 😉 I loved spending time with my hobbies and felt content acquainting with my own self..

And when I was doing so much of it, I met eyes with something that has drawn me crazy for a while now and I just can’t stop thinking about it.. Wherever I go, it just follows.. I keep wondering if its inspired by Vodafone?? 😛 So, let me keep it simple and tell you what it is. It’s called – in simple language – “photography”.

Photography for me till some time back was just smiling at the camera with all possible poses and asking my husband or my friends to click me.  I must admit, it’s a big pain for them 😛

I love capturing every possible moment in my “tiny companion” called camera and rejoice going back my memory lane with them. Doesn’t it fill your heart with joy to glance through your old snaps of those lovely moments that you never wanted to pass; those that can make life look worth it?I am no different 🙂

Well, things have gone little further to this now. My role of posing in front of the camera is taken over by me indulging in capturing the beauty of Mother Nature.. From flowers, farms, oceans, hills to sun, stars and sky – nature amazes us with its prettiness; and when locking them all in my camera, I thank God for his artistry.

No, don’t think I have stopped troubling people to snap me, I still do that and don’t see a day when I will ever stop! 😛

Aaeemm, thinking if I should be calling it “photography-mania”? 😉

Now, let me show you some of the snaps that made me feel like a “proud photographer”

Though I am enjoying every bit of my insanity with the camera, my husband doesn’t seem to be happy about it – he has understood my silent wish of getting an SLR camera from him. 😛

Long way to go.. 🙂

Happy Jaunting to me – The Spiritual Way.. :)

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“To travel is to take a journey into yourself.” — Danny Kaye

Travelling – the one thing that excites me most in my life! I get totally insane with my pursuit to travel places, meet people and of course get myself clicked in a camera 😛

From my earlier post – Adding memories to life – you would have already figured out how much I enjoy travelling. Travelling to me is to get refreshed, to explore my inner self, to experience the beauty of nature and to get lost in it by being just “ME”..

And now after a short (and unpleasant and boring 😦 ) medical break, I am back – back in action 😉 – on my jaunts! Just like “The Batman” Rises 😛 And yes, my jaunts are different this time! They are not beaches or hill-stations or recreation places, they are – spiritual ! 🙂

Our hearts are closely connected with spirituality. How much ever technologically advanced we become in our life, there still are a lot of whys hows and whats, some questions unanswered, some doubts uncleared, something missing that our “modern lifestyle” doesn’t fulfil. That’s when we seek spirituality; we seek a connection to that supreme power!!

My travel this time is going to be places of divine power, places that are worshipped by thousands and millions, places that are believed to fulfil wishes 🙂 Ofcourse, all my in lovely country – INDIA 🙂

Well, fortunately, I have got a simple, happy and satisfied life – no complains and no regrets at all.. My purpose of this trip is to “add cherries on the top” of my life thank god for putting lovely people in my life circle.. The second purpose is to seek strength to face all situations with a smiling face 🙂 even when life turns blue.. I don’t wish a cake walk in life – I am visiting them with a faith to get my bit of peace of mind.

I don’t expect God fulfilling all my wishes, for the simple reason that, my wishlist is much longer than the queue of millions of devotees in these temples 😛 I can’t put god in so much pressure you see.. 😉

Uhh, I am still in the middle of a hectic work week and my heart is already “day-dreaming” about the mini-vacations planned for the next couple of weekends! How do I tell it to have patience, they are still few days away 😉

So here is the plan for next 5 weekends:

This weekend: Satyanarayan Pooja at home

Every journey begins with a step and my first step begins in my own home with a small Satyanarayan pooja. This month is believed to be holy and auspicious as per Hinduism and it’s a practise I follow to offer this prayer every year at home.

 

 

Next weekend: The Tirumala Hills – Tirupati

Tirupati – the home of Lord Venkateshwara. Since childhood I have heard a lot of stories about this place. It’s believed that Lord Venkateshwara took a loan from Kuber for her marriage which he has to pay till end of Kal Yuga and that’s how he is the only diety with hands spread. Isn’t it interesting ! Well, as of today, this temple is richest in India. Its situated inmidst of 7 hills that takes around 4 hours to climb. This one is gonna be adventurous for sure 🙂

The third weekend: Mahalakshmi – Kolhapur

I have been to Mahalakshmi temple earlier and believe me, its beautiful with ancient architecture mapping its presence from more than 500 years old. Lakshmi is Goddess of Wealth and power and is visited to seek prosperity. Its believed that after visiting Tirupati, you should visit Kolhapur otherwise your Tirupati trip is not considered complete. This is because of the belief that Goddess Lakshmi is Lord Ventakeshwara’s wife and Goddess Padmavati’s avatar.

The fourth weekend: Trimbakeshwar – Nasik

Well, I don’t know much about this place apart from the information available on Wikipedia, L I just know it’s a well known temple of Lord Shiva and a place where Lord Rama and Sita stayed for a while out of their 14 years “vanavasa”. You will have to wait till my next blog for more details 😛 I am visting this with my parents for a pooja – my special effort for their good health. 🙂

And the last one: Mantrayalam – Andra Pradesh

I first visited this place after my marriage with my in-laws. My father-in-law is a follower of Raghvendra Swami who took Samadhi here in Mantrayalam about 400 years ago. The one thing I like the most here are the evening prayers – the holy sound of drums,  the holy songs sung by people, the chanting of mantras. It just creates a divine environment around us  – and ofcourse within us. 🙂

Well, looks hectic but I am so very excited about them! Monsoon, rains, beauty of nature and the holy places – best combination ever.. 🙂

Happy Jaunting to me.. 🙂 🙂