I kept noticing her in every now and then. Sometimes I felt she was just like me, other times she seemed a complete stranger.
She keeps running pillar to post – every minute of the day. I was striving to understand what is she trying to do with her life? What keeps her busy around the clock? My curiosity to know her more increased every time I saw her.
And finally today I got the chance to talk to her.
Smiling face, cheerful eyes, energetic body and a composed mind – impressive personality, I thought!
I took a step forward to start our conversation. “hello” I said with a little hesitation. “hey hi” was the answer – from her. From the other person – surprisingly, she resided within me. The person who had been occupying my body, heart and soul – unknowingly – my own self.
So here I was – standing in front of my own outer self.
I see you doing 1000 different activities. Home, office, gym, friends, family, functions, temple, parties. What keeps you going? How do you manage all this? – I asked, still with a little element of surprise in me.
She smiled back – it’s you who keeps me going darling! – an assertive voice replied.
Me?? What?? How?? Storm of questions rose inside. What are you talking about? I always felt I should be like you?
I am always in my own world, day dreaming, hoping for miracles to happen. I like to be quiet, to sit alone, keep thinking for anything and everything forever. How can I be a reason for such an inspiring life of you! People admire you, I am not even noticed.
She understood my sea of thoughts. Listen – she said. Whatever I do are my responsibilities. Not that I don’t enjoy them, but the reason I do them has a partial influence of others.
What I do along with you is my true happiness. Without boundaries, without thinking about anyone else but me. That feels like my own space of being just me – My space that rejuvenates me, cuddles me with love and care, motivate me to chase my dreams, makes me feel important!
Think about it, how our conversations with others are shrinking these days. Conversations meant opening-up for your heart to your beloved before, sharing how you “feel” – being together, doing things together, fighting for something, being crazy, being upset – every emotion that you felt.
It’s very different now. There are mere talks now. “How” has transformed to “what”. What did you do today? What is it for dinner? What’s your plan for weekend? World of “updates”
Isn’t that the reason, people feel lonely, demotivated, uncared, unloved?
Everyone wants this emotional balance in life, they want to experience depth of emotions – no one knows how to achieve it? Is it because of the time, or the incapability to express, or the ego of why me first, or the priority to materialistic happiness? No one cares.
Everyone settles for a day-to-day operational life and keep boosting themselves, or rather lieing to themselves about the perfect world they have carved for themselves.
In all this, my dear, if I have you to share my heart – M I not blessed? 🙂 The warmth in her voice touched my heart.
I had no words in my mouth, no questions in my head – just teary eyes. I didn’t know how to react.
I just walked away – with a gratitude for my “inner self” Thank you, I said to myself. For taking care of the “real” me.