Me and Her!

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positive-self-talkI kept noticing her in every now and then. Sometimes I felt she was just like me, other times she seemed a complete stranger.

She keeps running pillar to post – every minute of the day. I was striving to understand what is she trying to do with her life? What keeps her busy around the clock? My curiosity to know her more increased every time I saw her.

And finally today I got the chance to talk to her.

Smiling face, cheerful eyes, energetic body and a composed mind – impressive personality, I thought!

I took a step forward to start our conversation. “hello” I said with a little hesitation. “hey hi” was the answer – from her. From the other person – surprisingly, she resided within me. The person who had been occupying my body, heart and soul – unknowingly – my own self.

So here I was – standing in front of my own outer self.

I see you doing 1000 different activities. Home, office, gym, friends, family, functions, temple, parties. What keeps you going? How do you manage all this? – I asked, still with a little element of surprise in me.

She smiled back – it’s you who keeps me going darling! – an assertive voice replied.

Me?? What?? How?? Storm of questions rose inside. What are you talking about? I always felt I should be like you?

I am always in my own world, day dreaming, hoping for miracles to happen. I like to be quiet, to sit alone, keep thinking for anything and everything forever. How can I be a reason for such an inspiring life of you! People admire you, I am not even noticed.

She understood my sea of thoughts. Listen – she said. Whatever I do are my responsibilities. Not that I don’t enjoy them, but the reason I do them has a partial influence of others.

What I do along with you is my true happiness. Without boundaries, without thinking about anyone else but me. That feels like my own space of being just me – My space that rejuvenates me, cuddles me with love and care, motivate me to chase my dreams, makes me feel important!

Think about it, how our conversations with others are shrinking these days. Conversations meant opening-up for your heart to your beloved before, sharing how you “feel” – being together, doing things together, fighting for something, being crazy, being upset – every emotion that you felt.

It’s very different now. There are mere talks now. “How” has transformed to “what”. What did you do today? What is it for dinner? What’s your plan for weekend? World of “updates”

Isn’t that the reason, people feel lonely, demotivated, uncared, unloved?

Everyone wants this emotional balance in life, they want to experience depth of emotions – no one knows how to achieve it? Is it because of the time, or the incapability to express, or the ego of why me first, or the priority to materialistic happiness? No one cares.

Everyone settles for a day-to-day operational life and keep boosting themselves, or rather lieing to themselves about the perfect world they have carved for themselves.

In all this, my dear, if I have you to share my heart – M I not blessed? 🙂 The warmth in her voice touched my heart.

I had no words in my mouth, no questions in my head – just teary eyes. I didn’t know how to react.

I just walked away – with a gratitude for my “inner self” Thank you, I said to myself. For taking care of the “real” me.

 

 

 

Love is.. what it is.. ♥♥

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I couldn’t gather words..
When I was asked, what love means to me
I just know with you it was special and new
Something that was gifted only for me

When we first met..love
Love meant that blush sitting by your side
That slight hesitation, that excitement I couldn’t hide
Every song lyricked my feelings for you
Always wondered if u also felt me in you?

When we got along..
Love meant a dreamful journey with u
Growing old together, in happiness and blue
Having family, raising our kids
Making our home, a bit by bit

Now after many years..
Love is a mature feeling of us
A habit, a comfort, a bond of trust
It’s the completeness u bring to my world
Every moment of life, worth to behold!

There is just one thing I feel hasn’t changed by time..
You rule my heart, what more to say?
How more can I explain this cute little play
You are still the first thought when I start my day
I think of just you, when night is at bay!

Holding your hand….

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handsIn search of love, I always wandered
Is that a collage of 2 beautiful hearts
Or a journey, together and apart
Is that a mix of surprises and sorrow
Or just a pair of bow and arrow
And then came you, oasis in the sand
Love is togetherness, holding your hand….

In search of happiness, I always wandered
Is it an emotion that makes me fly
Or a spirit that takes off the sigh
Is it the smile after the tears
Or just a word people call “cheers”
And then came you, greenery in barren land
Happiness is fulfillment, holding your hand….

In search of life, I always wandered
Is it a book that slowly unfolds
Or just a hope that you always hold
Is it a basket of pleasure and pain
Or a story that’s completely insane
And then came you, like a musical band
Life is experiences, holding your hand….

The Rise of Phoenix

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Since my school days I had always wondered if the Greek mythological bird Phoenix ever had any truth in it. How can a bird take rebirth from its own ashes?

As I grew older, I understood the deeper meaning of this concept. Phoenix symbolizes renewal, transformation from your old self to a new one, a change for good, a new life with new aspirations and fresh mind. Its an inspiration to metamorphose your self.

Last 2 weeks were a bit crazy for me. A 9-day long break from office and “no agenda” at home made my mind almost a vacuum. First 2 days were so relaxed, just sleeping eating, watching TV, and doing NOTHING at all that’s productive. A complete rejuvenation! 😛

Then came a time when my mind started peeping inside in search of something I always wanted to do, wanted to become,  and wasn’t really taking an effort for it.

It’s said that empty mind is devil’s workshop however for me it turned out to be a “google search within” 🙂

I started making list of things I would want to do in my life – small and big – from being punctual at office to start meditating to controlling my food habits (which is the biggest and most challenging one is the list I think) 😛 I figured that personally and professionally I need to make myself better in certain aspects whether its decision making, keeping patience at times or just letting go things that create a turbulence.

I also realized that I am very good at beginning new things but most of times loose my grip in continuing them after a while. Hence most of the things I had started were unfinished, left incomplete. Sigh!

I didn’t want this to repeat and hence for the next 2-3 days I only looked at the list to make sure my mind is all prepared to start and continue with what all I want.

This week, I tested myself on it and to my surprise, I was able to achieve my desires seamlessly. I didn’t miss any of the things put on paper. I am calmer than before, feeling light, laughing aloud, streamlining thoughts, making way out from my own confusions, taking decisions rationally.

Overall, feels like a rebirth from the older version to be a better, happier and a satisfied me. A colourful life ahead of me!

Isn’t it  rise of phoenix within? 🙂

The place I call “HOME”..

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Beaches, mountains, wonders of the world I may roam
Nothing better I found than the place I call home..

My home is not a palace, nor its a castle
It’s a simple place away from all hassles..

It’s a place my mind seeks the much needed peace
Just a small one, with everything of my ease..

It sees me in all my laugh and cry
It witnesses my happiness and my sigh..

Stands by me to welcome friends and family
Has so much warmth that strangers too feel homely..

Gives me space to explore myself
Reminds of hobbies that are kept in the shelf..

Holds me tight with the flowers yellow pink and white
Sprinkles the beauty of moon stars and the black night..

Gives me the food I need to survive
Here I dance and sing, here I revive..

The walls showcase pictures of the happy times
Birds on the windows sing melodious rhymes..

Doors tell me I can shut things that deeply hurt
I am well protected, the roof always asserts..

It’s my temple, where I silently sit and pray
It’s my heart, where all my emotions stay..

It’s my womb, where my soul reside
It’s my sky to fly, my wings spread wide..

It’s a comfort, where I can always rest
It’s the place that tells me I am the BEST!

Home sweet home, reflection of my own
Nothing better I found than the place I call home 🙂

O Life!

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O life, it’s just another day of high and low
Can you see me dull? My heartbeat is slow

I sit in a corner, my mind wandering to think
What have I done that my life suddenly blinks?

I know “hide and seek” is your favourite play
But please remember, I am not stone – I am soft as clay

I know you are dynamic, with lots of surprises
I do try adapting, every time the sun rises

Do you want me not to trust you anymore?
Is that why you give me experiences that are bitter and soar?

If that is so, I take it and I am ready to fight
Don’t underestimate me, I can reach new height

I close my eyes and I just pray
Not asking happiness, just don’t betray

Give me more patience; I know I need it the most
You know it better, you are the host!

Happy Jaunting to me – The Spiritual Way.. :)

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“To travel is to take a journey into yourself.” — Danny Kaye

Travelling – the one thing that excites me most in my life! I get totally insane with my pursuit to travel places, meet people and of course get myself clicked in a camera 😛

From my earlier post – Adding memories to life – you would have already figured out how much I enjoy travelling. Travelling to me is to get refreshed, to explore my inner self, to experience the beauty of nature and to get lost in it by being just “ME”..

And now after a short (and unpleasant and boring 😦 ) medical break, I am back – back in action 😉 – on my jaunts! Just like “The Batman” Rises 😛 And yes, my jaunts are different this time! They are not beaches or hill-stations or recreation places, they are – spiritual ! 🙂

Our hearts are closely connected with spirituality. How much ever technologically advanced we become in our life, there still are a lot of whys hows and whats, some questions unanswered, some doubts uncleared, something missing that our “modern lifestyle” doesn’t fulfil. That’s when we seek spirituality; we seek a connection to that supreme power!!

My travel this time is going to be places of divine power, places that are worshipped by thousands and millions, places that are believed to fulfil wishes 🙂 Ofcourse, all my in lovely country – INDIA 🙂

Well, fortunately, I have got a simple, happy and satisfied life – no complains and no regrets at all.. My purpose of this trip is to “add cherries on the top” of my life thank god for putting lovely people in my life circle.. The second purpose is to seek strength to face all situations with a smiling face 🙂 even when life turns blue.. I don’t wish a cake walk in life – I am visiting them with a faith to get my bit of peace of mind.

I don’t expect God fulfilling all my wishes, for the simple reason that, my wishlist is much longer than the queue of millions of devotees in these temples 😛 I can’t put god in so much pressure you see.. 😉

Uhh, I am still in the middle of a hectic work week and my heart is already “day-dreaming” about the mini-vacations planned for the next couple of weekends! How do I tell it to have patience, they are still few days away 😉

So here is the plan for next 5 weekends:

This weekend: Satyanarayan Pooja at home

Every journey begins with a step and my first step begins in my own home with a small Satyanarayan pooja. This month is believed to be holy and auspicious as per Hinduism and it’s a practise I follow to offer this prayer every year at home.

 

 

Next weekend: The Tirumala Hills – Tirupati

Tirupati – the home of Lord Venkateshwara. Since childhood I have heard a lot of stories about this place. It’s believed that Lord Venkateshwara took a loan from Kuber for her marriage which he has to pay till end of Kal Yuga and that’s how he is the only diety with hands spread. Isn’t it interesting ! Well, as of today, this temple is richest in India. Its situated inmidst of 7 hills that takes around 4 hours to climb. This one is gonna be adventurous for sure 🙂

The third weekend: Mahalakshmi – Kolhapur

I have been to Mahalakshmi temple earlier and believe me, its beautiful with ancient architecture mapping its presence from more than 500 years old. Lakshmi is Goddess of Wealth and power and is visited to seek prosperity. Its believed that after visiting Tirupati, you should visit Kolhapur otherwise your Tirupati trip is not considered complete. This is because of the belief that Goddess Lakshmi is Lord Ventakeshwara’s wife and Goddess Padmavati’s avatar.

The fourth weekend: Trimbakeshwar – Nasik

Well, I don’t know much about this place apart from the information available on Wikipedia, L I just know it’s a well known temple of Lord Shiva and a place where Lord Rama and Sita stayed for a while out of their 14 years “vanavasa”. You will have to wait till my next blog for more details 😛 I am visting this with my parents for a pooja – my special effort for their good health. 🙂

And the last one: Mantrayalam – Andra Pradesh

I first visited this place after my marriage with my in-laws. My father-in-law is a follower of Raghvendra Swami who took Samadhi here in Mantrayalam about 400 years ago. The one thing I like the most here are the evening prayers – the holy sound of drums,  the holy songs sung by people, the chanting of mantras. It just creates a divine environment around us  – and ofcourse within us. 🙂

Well, looks hectic but I am so very excited about them! Monsoon, rains, beauty of nature and the holy places – best combination ever.. 🙂

Happy Jaunting to me.. 🙂 🙂