2nd innings..

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2013-02-19-back-to-workAh! So finally here I am with my tortoise pen blogging again!

Last 2 years have been crazy with my little one doing all the naughty cute things, and keeping me busy. Though hectic, I feel this is the best part of my life seeing my – now toddler – growing and dancing and playing and learning and what not. My smarty he is! 😎

During this period, I didn’t take off from work but chose to make my home my new workstation. I was working from home for the last 2 years taking care of my bundle of joy and my home and my home office. I kept visiting office once a week or so just to be in touch with people around. Its just 1 month away now that I need to re-join work and get into the 2nd innings after a good long honeymoon period!

A lot of mixed emotions are going around my mind, and I am not sure which one to focus on. 😐

As you would also have experienced, there is a joy of getting back to work, be with people (sitting at home working alone is terrible!), share stories, share lunch.. Ah, I soo missed it!

Meeting people and sharing ideas and the discussions are still much more productive and “human” in this advanced technology age!

A small tea break with friends and the chitchats and the gossips give more energy to the blood than the fiber-rich biscuits at home 😛

Hmm, yaa so that is one part of the story.

Other part of my brain is all taken by a worried mom on thoughts if my tiny tot would adjust in the playschool, would he be ok without me, would the people in playschool be as patient as I am with him while he make tantrums for food. The list is endless! 😦 😦

Who can understand a kid more than his mother? And again, who else would want to?

This again reflects the importance of our culture of joint families, staying together – helping hands for all.

I checked a couple of playschools all of which claimed to be the best. The choice is tough and gets tougher with the reviews that I read – a mix of good and bad.

And with these thoughts when I walk towards my room, I see my wardrobe and wonder – isn’t the collection a bit old now for office 😛

30 days to go from now, and life is going to change! Let me see what comes in the plate!

The best part about future is the suspense it has! Isnt it? 🙂

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The place I call “HOME”..

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Beaches, mountains, wonders of the world I may roam
Nothing better I found than the place I call home..

My home is not a palace, nor its a castle
It’s a simple place away from all hassles..

It’s a place my mind seeks the much needed peace
Just a small one, with everything of my ease..

It sees me in all my laugh and cry
It witnesses my happiness and my sigh..

Stands by me to welcome friends and family
Has so much warmth that strangers too feel homely..

Gives me space to explore myself
Reminds of hobbies that are kept in the shelf..

Holds me tight with the flowers yellow pink and white
Sprinkles the beauty of moon stars and the black night..

Gives me the food I need to survive
Here I dance and sing, here I revive..

The walls showcase pictures of the happy times
Birds on the windows sing melodious rhymes..

Doors tell me I can shut things that deeply hurt
I am well protected, the roof always asserts..

It’s my temple, where I silently sit and pray
It’s my heart, where all my emotions stay..

It’s my womb, where my soul reside
It’s my sky to fly, my wings spread wide..

It’s a comfort, where I can always rest
It’s the place that tells me I am the BEST!

Home sweet home, reflection of my own
Nothing better I found than the place I call home 🙂

Horizon – where aspirations meet reality!

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“The horizon leans forward, offering you space to place new steps of change” ~ Maya Angelou

In our life we have aspirations and we have reality. Aspirations – high as the sky –are full of energy, full of positivity, full of hope. On contrary, there is reality with a “take what comes your way attitude” – very calculative, very controlled, very rigid.

.. And this chase of making our aspirations meet reality is called LIFE – OUR HORIZON! 🙂

Now you might think of many other metaphors used for life and might wonder why I chose it to be called Horizon. Well, there is a reason – something I can relate to my own life!

The horizon keeps moving ahead the nearer we go, and so does the reality. There is never an end to both; there is never a final destination to both! 🙂

My life has been a journey reaching this horizon and every time I thought I was just there, it moved far again – every time leaving something behind – good and bad – adding milestones to life!

This month, 8 years ago – I started my professional life. Long way! It feels great and satisfied that I could make my life something that I aspired!

It started with an aspiration to gift a home to my parents and thanks to my luck that supported it well to turn it a reality. It was tough, challenging and needed a lot of hard work. However, as it’s said – “where there is a will, there is a way”!

It felt like touching the sky when this aspiration became a part of my real life! The moment of handing keys to my parents and the love and pride in their shining eyes is still the most special moment of my life – the first horizon of my life! 🙂

Well, as I said, there is no end to this. Aspirations – small and big kept me moving.  Kept me busy converting them to reality. One after the other, the journey towards horizon continued..

New people, new companies, new designations, new geographies, new trips, new salary figures;) – all a part of this journey!

Today, I am satisfied of what I am doing, what I have done so far. Still I see that horizon that I want to reach – to become a person who inspires others, who is looked up with respect, who is known for good things, who is taken as an example.

I am travelling towards it – with a dream to make it a reality!

 

Happy Jaunting to me – The Spiritual Way.. :)

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“To travel is to take a journey into yourself.” — Danny Kaye

Travelling – the one thing that excites me most in my life! I get totally insane with my pursuit to travel places, meet people and of course get myself clicked in a camera 😛

From my earlier post – Adding memories to life – you would have already figured out how much I enjoy travelling. Travelling to me is to get refreshed, to explore my inner self, to experience the beauty of nature and to get lost in it by being just “ME”..

And now after a short (and unpleasant and boring 😦 ) medical break, I am back – back in action 😉 – on my jaunts! Just like “The Batman” Rises 😛 And yes, my jaunts are different this time! They are not beaches or hill-stations or recreation places, they are – spiritual ! 🙂

Our hearts are closely connected with spirituality. How much ever technologically advanced we become in our life, there still are a lot of whys hows and whats, some questions unanswered, some doubts uncleared, something missing that our “modern lifestyle” doesn’t fulfil. That’s when we seek spirituality; we seek a connection to that supreme power!!

My travel this time is going to be places of divine power, places that are worshipped by thousands and millions, places that are believed to fulfil wishes 🙂 Ofcourse, all my in lovely country – INDIA 🙂

Well, fortunately, I have got a simple, happy and satisfied life – no complains and no regrets at all.. My purpose of this trip is to “add cherries on the top” of my life thank god for putting lovely people in my life circle.. The second purpose is to seek strength to face all situations with a smiling face 🙂 even when life turns blue.. I don’t wish a cake walk in life – I am visiting them with a faith to get my bit of peace of mind.

I don’t expect God fulfilling all my wishes, for the simple reason that, my wishlist is much longer than the queue of millions of devotees in these temples 😛 I can’t put god in so much pressure you see.. 😉

Uhh, I am still in the middle of a hectic work week and my heart is already “day-dreaming” about the mini-vacations planned for the next couple of weekends! How do I tell it to have patience, they are still few days away 😉

So here is the plan for next 5 weekends:

This weekend: Satyanarayan Pooja at home

Every journey begins with a step and my first step begins in my own home with a small Satyanarayan pooja. This month is believed to be holy and auspicious as per Hinduism and it’s a practise I follow to offer this prayer every year at home.

 

 

Next weekend: The Tirumala Hills – Tirupati

Tirupati – the home of Lord Venkateshwara. Since childhood I have heard a lot of stories about this place. It’s believed that Lord Venkateshwara took a loan from Kuber for her marriage which he has to pay till end of Kal Yuga and that’s how he is the only diety with hands spread. Isn’t it interesting ! Well, as of today, this temple is richest in India. Its situated inmidst of 7 hills that takes around 4 hours to climb. This one is gonna be adventurous for sure 🙂

The third weekend: Mahalakshmi – Kolhapur

I have been to Mahalakshmi temple earlier and believe me, its beautiful with ancient architecture mapping its presence from more than 500 years old. Lakshmi is Goddess of Wealth and power and is visited to seek prosperity. Its believed that after visiting Tirupati, you should visit Kolhapur otherwise your Tirupati trip is not considered complete. This is because of the belief that Goddess Lakshmi is Lord Ventakeshwara’s wife and Goddess Padmavati’s avatar.

The fourth weekend: Trimbakeshwar – Nasik

Well, I don’t know much about this place apart from the information available on Wikipedia, L I just know it’s a well known temple of Lord Shiva and a place where Lord Rama and Sita stayed for a while out of their 14 years “vanavasa”. You will have to wait till my next blog for more details 😛 I am visting this with my parents for a pooja – my special effort for their good health. 🙂

And the last one: Mantrayalam – Andra Pradesh

I first visited this place after my marriage with my in-laws. My father-in-law is a follower of Raghvendra Swami who took Samadhi here in Mantrayalam about 400 years ago. The one thing I like the most here are the evening prayers – the holy sound of drums,  the holy songs sung by people, the chanting of mantras. It just creates a divine environment around us  – and ofcourse within us. 🙂

Well, looks hectic but I am so very excited about them! Monsoon, rains, beauty of nature and the holy places – best combination ever.. 🙂

Happy Jaunting to me.. 🙂 🙂

♥ Love just needs.. TIME.. ♥

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We have many loved ones around us – our family, friends, well-wishers. They all love us and so do we. However life has become so fast-paced that we hardly get time express our love for them. We hardly get the time to think what is working right, what is going wrong in our life or hardly care to find roots of our own feelings. We just keep running every minute, every hour, every day ignoring our inner self that seeks peace and satisfaction.

Today, as I sit in the window looking at rain, I am trying to figure out that missing block in me. Rain has always given that freshness to my mind to think right. When the tiny rain drops sprinkle on my face, I feel that all the wrongs are going to be wiped out of me and I will come out clean 🙂 So I start clean, thinking, analyzing my life and making sure to rectify my mistakes.

I am sure many of you all would agree that though you wanted to call a friend, or visit your parents – something came up and you couldn’t. Call it our poor time management skill or just overload of work, we really don’t have time.

Being a working woman, I too have to keep juggling between roles of a home-maker to a manager to a cook to what not. My time flies so fast that at the end of the day, I don’t have time to talk to myself, and so to my loved ones too.

Thanks to the medical leave I took that gave me breathing space to reflect back on my life, to analysis what my people expect from me and what I am not able to give them, to realize that I am hurting people who mean the most to me.

“Its better now then never” – truly said and that’s what I followed! 🙂

My mom calls me every day without fail just to check whether I had food on time, whether I am doing fine. However most of the times, I just disconnect her call or make it short saying I am busy and I will call her. Not that I don’t want to talk to her, just that I can’t manage time well in my tight schedule of the day. I wondered today how much time it takes for me to just give a buzz to her and tell her I am fine, I had food and ask her not to worry – hardly 10-15 mins I would guess. Can’t I manage this much? What do our parents expect from us, just a little time to care them, or at least respect the care they have for us. These 10-15mins call will give her so much happiness and sense of relief and its so easy for me to do this! Mom, I hurted you till now but I promise I won’t repeat this from today!

Thinking all this, I called her and trust me, I could feel her smile over the phone. Love you mom! 🙂

Then my thinking cap turned towards my friends who care so much for me. I have been missing calls from my best friends due to a meeting or a client call or just because I was into something important. In short – I was taking my friends for granted that they understand, unknowingly giving them a feeling that I don’t care for the care they have for me, which of course is not true.

Now was the time to call them and tell them that I am privileged to have them in my life and apologize. For sure I knew, they will take it light and we ended up our call with laughs and light heart 🙂

And now last, but definitely not the least – my husband. Though we are a nuclear family and have all privacy that we need, there is a little time that overlaps for us where we are together at home. I have been cribbing about this to him since we got married but we never reached any solution for this nor were we determined enough to do so.  Our routine for evening is to come home and then me getting into cooking and he busy watching TV.

However, since the time my health got little upset, I saw a change in him – rather a BIG change. 🙂 In a day, I get many sms’s asking about my lunch, my snacks, my work tension. Now, the TV watching time has become our “evening walk together” time and the “morning getting up late time” has become salad cutting time for us. 🙂 The alarms that he hated for all his life have become reminders for my medicines now. I am happy with this change, just that I didn’t convey with to him yet. Now, I have decided to call him and tell him how much it means to me 🙂 That’s what is my next call now.

Today with this blog, I want to thank all my loved ones for their love, care and support. I want to tell them that they mean the world to me.

Time is the basic expectation our loved ones have from us no matter how busy we are or what is keeping us occupied. Someone close to me once said – couple of minutes spent for loved ones when we don’t have time carries more value than hours spent with them when we are free. How true is that!

At the end of the day, the memories we have with them and the smile on their faces matter the most in this world. Is that not what we are earning for?

Old is Gold!

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My parents-in-law celebrated their 35th anniversary last week. It was a very special moment for our whole family. More than a celebration, it was a lesson for the young couples to follow their footsteps and lead a happy life.

They had recently visited Pune for a 1-week vacation to stay with us. This 1 week was full of learning for me.

When you have elders at home, it’s that extra moral support you get just by their presence. Their experiences are like teachings for us that help us lead our life in a better way.

I remember one such evening I spent with my mother-in-law and father-in-law sitting in our balcony having a cup of tea and listening to stories of their life, their struggles, their achievements, their experiences, all about their life. At the end of the talk, which I never wanted to end, I felt like yes I want to be like them.

To my surprise and a bit of disbelief, let me share with you, that in their 35 years of married life, they have never fought!! I think it’s more to do with that ‘’give-up” and “have patience”attitude the earlier generation had that helped them to be in sink with each other. I think this is a big achievement in itself. Isn’t it true that our relations are much bigger than our egos?

When my in-laws got married, my father-in-law’s salary was around Rs. 350 a month and even in that, they used to save 10-20 rupees. I had my eyes wide open when I heard this. In today’s world, when most of us have a five digit salary, we have no clue where the salary flows. Atleast I admit that I am poor at managing finance.

Not just savings, in that same salary, they had some school kids come home every Thursday for lunch. In villages we have this system to feed outstation kids that come from poor background once in a week as charity. I felt small hearing this. Though I do charity once in a while, this is something that raised respect for them to a much higher level.

Earlier generation was “people oriented”. May be that is the reason they don’t prefer cities with “closed doors” culture.They valued people more than money. And so, they never faced problems like feeling lonely, depressed or lost like our generation. For us, we prefer speaking on facebook, mobile or sms instead of meeting face to face. Think when was it last time you met a friend or a close relative?

For every small thing they purchased, be it a telephone, a pair of new clothes or shoes, they planned for months and saved and then bought. They never opted for loans 😛 And so, they had value for every small thing they owned. For us, we think it and we get it and so we don’t value our belongings so much.

The best thing I liked was the satisfaction they had throughout their life in managing everything with limited resources.

They are not just one example, there are plenty of them around us. My parents are one of them. Think about your parents, what all we can learn from them?

In this modern lifestyle that we have, we lack the important aspects of life – patience, satisfaction, adjustments, and sacrifices. They have all got covered with ego, self-importance, competition, jealousy and what now.

I believe our earlier generation is a deep ocean of experiences and more than books or anything else, we should learn life lessons from them. I feel lucky to be a part of such an amazing family!!

It’s really high time to sit and analyse where we are heading and where we way we should take to achieve real happiness of life.

The bottom line is Old is truly Gold!