To all the working moms, who are dancing on the toes juggling between home to office to baby sitting to cooking – you will see “YOU” in them.. and SMILE! Just like me!
My mom – the first one to know me when I was not even born. The one who cared me before me seeing this world, the one who understood me before even me understanding myself. The first and the most special relation I made in my life.
That’s what god says – “just because I can’t be present everywhere, I have given you a mom” 🙂
When I was born, my mom would have felt that I completed her world. I am sure she spent all these years dreaming about my future, praying for my well-being, protecting me from all the evils of the world.
In my childhood, she molded me to be a good human-being, gave me values of life that define what I am today, became a teacher (rather the most strict teacher :P) so I get the importance of education, played with me as a friend, taught me value of social life and the various relations that we hold. She sacrificed her own dreams for me and would have seen them come true through me.
Like a potter, she molded the pot of my life ♥
As I grew to the most rebellion age of teen, friends became priority. Mom became a character who imposes restrictions all the time. Listening to friends and being with them all the time was like a prestige of life, ignoring what mom had to say about it. Mom was like a old-fashioned person in life. Though I loved her so much that time as well, I never bothered to tell her the same. She was more of a person whom I can take for granted anytime and everytime.
Mom silently absorbed all that and still kept caring the same way as she was.
Then came the age of early twenties. Mind and heart were full of dreams of bright future, college, career. Enjoyment of life was at the fullest. New friends, new jobs, new environments kept coming and going and I got too involved in these attractions. Mom was at home, for me, just to be informed where I am. That’s it. Yeah, sometimes to order her to cook my favorite dishes.
Mom still adapted to whatever I did.
When I told her that I want to marry the person I love, of course her dreams of my marriage would have got scattered. However, just for my happiness, she agreed and made sure the biggest event of my life was made the most memorable one.
Even today, when I am busy managing work and home, she keeps calling me everyday to know my well-being. Sometimes I speak with her sometimes, sometimes disconnect her calls when I am in meetings, sometimes forget to call her back due to work, but she has not given up her consistency.
That’s what my mom is!!
Today, when I am taking this journey to be a mom soon, I realize what all my mom has done for me and what all I have given her in return.
Of course I never forgot my responsibilities towards her health, towards giving her those small surprises on her birthday and all, but when I look at what she has done for me, they all look too small to be done for her.
I feel lucky to have her in my life and feel sorry that I couldn’t do much for her that she really deserved.
I feel like silently putting my head in her lap and ask her forgiveness. I am sure whatever stage of life I am, my mom’s lap is the most secure place for me in this whole world where I will get unconditional love without any second thought.
Love you mom!
Have you ever experienced it with yourself that when you really want something, you don’t get it but when you leave that expectation and move on, destiny plays its cards and get you the same thing at an unexpected time! I think the favourite game for destiny is “surprise”! ヅ
It was last November when I was planning for my year-end vacation, googling websites to explore various destinations, budgeting, talking to tour providers and what not! I just so desperately wanted this vacation – probably to run away from the medical ups and downs I saw last year. Probably to refresh life again! ✿
But as I said, destiny is unpredictable! Early December last year, I got the news – the happiest news of my life – that there is a tiny life that has come inside me. The ecstasy this news gave is something I cannot ever express in words.
❤ My pearl has come inside its oyster! ❤
✩ Felt like a tickle in the belly with my baby saying – Mom I have come for you! ✩
Everything around me changed. Suddenly I was the one most cared in the family. Whether I am having food on time, taking medicines on time, whether stressing myself too much or should I leave my job and relax at home – where things on the top of the minds of my family.
It euphoric! You suddenly feel like the queen of this world!! ♛
My world changed – entirely! ✩
It amazes me to see how baby grows inside. From a small dot size, how it takes shape of a human, how all organs are formed, how that small tiny heart beats – every aspect of it is the most beautiful gift of nature. Something that we will owe to nature always!
The feeling I had when I heard the heart beat for the first time, when I felt the kick for the first time, when I felt so uneasy sand unwell still happy thinking its after all because of my tiny tot – every little experience adds to the fulfillment of this journey.
Happy to be a woman getting a chance to experience this delightful phase! Poor husbands, they can only imagine how it would be and get happy with our expressions! ヅ
I am in my last trimester now, counting days to take the unborn in my hands, see the unseen whom I have just felt, and love more than anything else in this world!
❀ Is it a new life inside me or my life inside? ❀